akinarose

Thank you I cannot believe that you always are there, To be there to help me in constant care, Even though I know what a bitch I can be, I always can count on you to be there for me, I do not see how this is so fair, When I know that I never seem to care, So that being said there is only one thing to do, That is to give my deepest apologies and thank you's, Thank you for always being my friend, Through thick and through thin, even to the bitter end, Thank you for always being that comforting hand, That could never be given by any self-righteous man, Thank you for always giving me that much needed hug, Even though I tortu

I can not remember not one day that was like this, not one single time I had felt so alone, so envious. I can honestly say that I have never felt so alone,  and never so so very depressed, that my life has sunken to something so miserable.  I truly can not think of any logical reason why I might feel so sad, Why I should feel so crushed and so alone, so helpless. Of course I never can avoid what does happen, for I am not a Phsycic, and certainly would never morn over what is the past, save for this one moment, on this one paper, so pure in its faithful brilliance, soon to be made filthy with the sloppy despair that is my words. I can not allo

"I can remember now, that time, that when I was told to be truly happy, truly and untouchably happy, before the bad began to sink in beneath the skin. I remember. Remember that time when life was simple, school was not a worry, work, cars, pollution, and other humans, none of it. Before then, when the world was young, the world was beautiful; the world was green and vibrant with health. I was very young then, before I had been turned to that other world, that sadly truthful thing the world has become. "I had been told many times of that time before now, that time before love or lust had stricken my heart, before hate had turned those beauti

SHATTER To shatter is to crack, And to crack is to be thrown off track, It is one of those days when my nerves shatter, But to anyone else this doesn't matter, The icey tears I know bare, The same ones I've refused to share, The ones for so long I've pinned inside, The ones I try so hard to hide, Now I show you as I am, A scarred small child with out a plan, I can only see one form of relief, But I am afraid to do that I will forever leave, Never to see anyone ever again, Never to get my chance at revenge, However I truly do not care, Those cruel people shall be sparred, The pain pulls hard deep with in me, Although for

DIE Death in my eyes is the most peaceful state of being, Mostly caused by foolish teasing, The teasing causes them to become homicidal, And in some cases come thoughts of being suicidal, They can not take the aching pain, It weighing them down like massive chains, And then they slowly begin to kill, A hallow space inside they try to fill, They begin with those who had teased, Trying to put their restless hearts at ease, Until there are not any more, When they have finally settled the score, But for some reason they cannot stop, They cannot halt the tick of the clock, They cannot quit what they have begun, And when they fina